...but I'm apathetic with a capitol "A".

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 00:04:29 GMT

sometimes I just get so discouraged.

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 09:16:39 GMT

I can't even begin to explain how I feel.

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive

I'm so happy

by the way, I'd be extra happy if someone bought me the goo goo dolls cd, "Dizzy Up The Girl".

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 07:35:16 GMT

i just really like this drawing.

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 01:55:25 GMT

He called me. :)

Why you be so cute?!

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 21:15:16 GMT

To the most amazing boy I know,

Happy Birthday. I hope you have the best day ever
and I hope that you've been enjoying all of your
presents. You only deserve the best. I am so
happy that I am your girlfriend. ahh...you're
girlfriend. You mean so much to me.
I Love You.

Love always,
A really, really brown girl

Mon, 30 May 2005 06:08:50 GMT

...and he says I'm his Nesquick.

<3333.

Sun, 22 May 2005 06:13:56 GMT

Well, this weekend was fun. Friday, I got to see Brad down in the ghetto...uhh I mean...Chandler! (tee-hee). I also got to meet his friends, Matt&Jessica, their so cute. awww. Their pretty cool and maybe we'll get to hang out again. Saturday, (tonight) all of our friends went out, it was pretty fun! We saw a movie and it was awesome.

Let me just say that tomorrow is 10 (that's right 10!) months with my beautiful boyfriend, Brad. I'm so happy to be with him and I wouldn't change anything that has happened in the last 10 months. He's the best guy I know. 10 months, baby, can you believe it?
[Brad I wish I could have stayed looking at the moon with you all night, that was amazing.]

http://img281.echo.cx/my.php?image=untitled2tx.png

Speak but a whisper
I'll hear a sermon

Thu, 05 May 2005 04:41:45 GMT

It's okay that you doubt.
It's okay that you don't trust me.
It's okay that you don't faith in me.
I need you too...
I know you're trying really hard,
...and i'll keep waiting.
I LOVE YOU.
None of this is your fault.
It's all my fault.
I'm really sorry for everything.
You're my best friend in the whole entire world.
and hey.....you're super rad!

Won't you be my answer?

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 03:58:59 GMT

Your faith means everything

rain+wind+freezing cold+brad=mmmm...a super good time!

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 07:14:51 GMT

"I love life."

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 06:33:41 GMT

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You never cease to amaze me....

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 03:43:51 GMT

Tonight I just realized how lucky and blessed I am to be surrounded by such great family and friends. I'm so thankful for my family, I love my mom and dad so much. I look up to both of them so much, I admire my dad for everything he's gone through to get to where he is today, and my mom is one of the most amazing women I have ever met. I learn so much from her day by day. My sisters...wow, I could never explain to someone how much they mean to me. I'm still that little girl that looks up to them and watches everything they do...hey, I want to be just as cool/smart as them.
My friends are just completely amazing I could go on forever on how great they are, but it'd take forever...bottum line is..They're AWESOME and I love them.
Now to my lovely and amazing boyfriend. He's got to be one of the greatest guys I've ever met. ever. I care so much about him, I really cannot believe we've been together for 7 months (and a day! haha). Tonight he wrote me a letter that brought me to tears(good tears, tears of happiness). I really don't think he knows how much I care for him. I've learned so much from him and I'm so thankful that I have him. I know he disagrees with me, but...I'm the lucky one. Thanks Brad,I<333You.

Sorry I wrote so much..I'm really not the one to write a whole bunch...well sometimes...I just keep on jabbering.peace out.

The Armor for Sleep cd he got me is so good, and I've only listened till track 6. Sorry I took your flannel(sp?), I meant to give it back, it smells so good though.

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 04:02:45 GMT

This week has been okay I guess. Not the best, not the worst. I've had like no homework all week and I'm so happy about that. I want to be stress free. Once basketball is over I just want to relax and not have to worry about anything [anything!]. I worry so much, and I honestly need to stop. Now I'm worrying about worrying too much. eek. I'm lame. :(

This past weekend was so fun. Oh my the Straylight Run/Armor for Sleep concert was amazing. I loved it, especially spending it with Brad and Blake, I love them so much. Now I'm hungry...peace out foo'.

[youmakemesohappy.ihonestlycantstopsmiling.thanks.]

We GHETTO!

My sister is so beautiful. <3.

I need you like the dragonfly's wings need the wind

me and my lovely sisters

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 06:05:48 GMT

I'll tell you I'm sorry that I can't take this pain away from you.
I'd put it on my own body if I knew how to, can't you see?

It's testing the strong ones.
It's scarring the beautiful ones.
It's holding the loved ones one last time.

weeeeeee!

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 04:22:20 GMT

I honestly cannot wait for this weekend, it is going to be so much FUN!! Saturday is going to be awesome and I'm so excited!! Just 3 more days. yesss.

i'm gonna close my mouth now
you don't need more noise in your life
i miss you more than you know
but i know time makes you move on
armorforsleep-feb.5th
(i copied bradley..because he's coolest boy ever)

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 06:52:09 GMT

leave it to me to live out a lie.

Sorry if I'm not good enough, I won't change for you.

bad night[......]

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 05:57:02 GMT

YEAH.

............

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 23:51:10 GMT

brad's cool. i love him!

6months.
<3333.

Some will seek forgiveness

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 19:36:45 GMT

Some people are so incrediably lame and it makes me so mad. Stop trying to be someone you're not. It's dumb, people don't find that cool. You can't expect people to like you because of the music you listen to. If you haven't even heard a band don't go around telling people you like them.

"Like oh my gosh, I love Emery!!<3.(yet I can't name 3 of their songs)"
Lame.lame.lame.lame.lame.lame.

How about you be yourself and not who people want you to be. Ever thought of that?

If you can guess who I'm listening to I'll give you a hug.

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 02:21:41 GMT

yeah, i'm lame.

so sorry.

{<3}

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 06:46:59 GMT

So I haven't written in this in a very long time. I haven't gotten online for like 3 weeks...I finally realized that the computer isn't that great. It's lame, but yes addicting. Anyway, it's been an interesting week...Thursday was the worst day of my life and well Friday was one of the best days ever.

ahhh....oh the happiness.

I was supposed to borrow all these cds from brad tonight, but I left them at Troy's...err.

"you can't go home again."

I'm going out sleepwalking

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 02:13:52 GMT

I went to Islands today. Ordered my usual. The guy went to go get the check. He comes back and says...."The meal is free! it's on us" Yes that's right. I didn't have to pay, for anything. free meal baby.

I've stopped freaking out about finals. Now I really just don't care.
I need to go Christmas shopping. hmmmmm....

Thank you.

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 02:21:37 GMT

The Copeland concert last night was exactly what I needed. I really needed to get away from school and everything for just one night. And thanks to Brad (and Copeland) I got just what I needed. Copeland is amazing. Truly amazing. I can't wait till their new cd. I'm so excited!!
Brad thanks for being the best ever. You seriously make me forgot all my stress and problems. You're the radest(sp?) boy I know.

School is almost out. just one more week [and 2 days].

la la la...I'm happy.

So I finally decided to give myself a reason

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 06:37:25 GMT

This weekend has been one of the best weekends ever. EVER. [<3.] Our Christmas play at church turned out really well. We all had so much fun doing it. I loved dancing in it. ...I love dancing. Oh dear, how I'll miss that "Wild Wild West". I love my church. I love everyone in it and everything we do. Being with the people there makes me so happy. I'm always laughing and smiling.
Ah. it's great.

Everynight this weekend I got to hang out with my closest friends. It was incrediable. I can't begin to explain how happy I get when I'm surrounded by the people who mean so much to me. I literally can't stop smiling. I haven't been able to stop smiling. Nothing could make my days bad. I'm just smiling and smiling. A lot happened this weekend, it was great. So much going on that I wanted to explode from all the excitement. tee-hee. Estoy Feliz.
I did finish my painting on the memorial wall in Washington DC, I think it looks pretty good. And I'm thankful for everyone on that wall.

I'm rather excited for this week. And this is why...
-----------------------------------------
"I need you like the dragonfly's wings need the wind,
like the orphan needs home once again,
like heaven needs more to come in.
I need you here like you've always been."
-----------------------------------------
Yes, that's right. Brad and I will be going to the Copeland concert together. mmhmmm that's right. We're going. What up now?! YOU KNOW! (hee-hee)

To the 3 most closest friends I've ever had:
I love you guys so much. I'm so happy right now, and it's all because of you three. I'm so grateful for all of you. <33333333333333.

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 01:30:30 GMT

:sigh:

I think it might be coming to an end.
[maybe.]